If you read any of my previous posts, you will realize, like so many others, that I blog like I do most things in life, I start like a 'bat outta hell', make some valiant attempts at consistency and then fade into the sunset like that pile of donation clothing sitting in the corner of my hallway.
Darn, way back then when I started this post, I was crafty! I was determined to be that person - the one who had it all together - the one that was perfect. Where I failed was that I also wanted to be authentic and truly share what I felt.
CLM (Career Limiting Move) identified and caught before committed! How could I question my desire to work, my inability to juggle everything and my imperfections and still be seen as someone a company would want to invest in as a senior professional? Nope, I had to say things like, no - I am good to travel 50% of the time across Asia. My 'helper' (as nannies are referred to in Singapore) takes care of the kids and puts them to bed if I am not home on time. I found that I was automatically self editing my thoughts because I still cared too much about what everyone thought of me, despite that it was killing my soul.
Well, the best thing about hitting your mid-forties is that it just doesn't matter as much now. I have a great role in a company that pushes me hard but that I think I can push back when needed. I have two amazing girls that I don't spend nearly enough time 100% present in their company. I have a loving husband who does more than his fair share of the laundry, kids duties and pushes me to go to sleep and exercise (I don't listen as much as I should).
So, that means, I am back and my objective of this post is to share with others what it is like to be a working mom. And in return, I would love to understand how you cope and manage your own success on your terms.
Looking forward to meeting you!
M
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